Any Old Actress

I swear… I’m deja vu-ing almost daily lately. And not just a vague sense of familiarity, but long drawn out instances where I’ve got time to think “Oh, this will happen next.” And it does.

I’ve always done this to a certain extent. The earliest I remember is maybe 4, and it was a common occurence. It never disturbed me or anything, and I kinda thought every one was like that. And then I got older and deja vu moments became shorter and more infrequent. I was probably 15 though when I started dreaming about weird things and having them pop up the next day. Like dreaming about Bill Cosby, and then waking up to find him plastered all over the TV Guide. And other things, less specific but just as uncanny. It’s gotten to be almost normal to dream about menstruating and wake up bloody - that one though is so intricately physiological that I don’t give it much credence.

It freaks me out a little. To stand there and know how a moment is going to play out. To have room to think “Oh, they’re going to say this next.” Or to be surfing a previously unknown web page and know what you’re going to read next. Or to know what someone’s going to say, know what you’re supposed to reply, and to have the option of changing your mind and saying something else. It’s just a little bizarro. Because it’s not something I can control/access, and I still don’t fully understand how it happens. And I go through phases where it happens more frequently, and the pre-cognitive impressions have a greater clarity - and I never know why.

It doesn’t help that I’m mentally/emotionally drained right now. For a variety of reasons. But all factors combined are conspiring to make me feel like I’m dreaming. When I’m awake. And not sleeping very well.

Double your pleasure, double your fun!

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BURN THE WITCH!

Yeah… Keep that up and I’ll tell the Town Fathers about your tea leaves, infidel!

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